...Every Now & Then W/Out Warning...

I'm so in love...

with the idea of who i could be

still in love...

with the notion of who i shud be

never been in love quite before...

until i realized who i will never be

my healing heart is full of pain...

filled with the dried tears that once left my white pillow cases stained

I like kissing you...

b/c it takes me away from myself

you protect me...

from myself...seeing the world for what it actually is...

I trust you...

and because of that...I have chosen to not live

&&& that's just it...
life is too short not to
afraid of making mistakes
when the whole point of life is to do just that
without mistakes, learning never occurs
without learning, growth never takes place
and with all that said...i'm currently staring death in the face
neglecting my right to LIVE and to SEE what life is trying to show me
boxing myself into a safe comfort zone, afraid of losing what i hold so dear to me
but if the old saying is true - what is meant to be will eventually be
so instead of trying to mold that reality...
i think i'd rather just wait & see