Never felt this way...
&&& yet I'm so sure...
so confused...lost...anxious....
yet...I just know... my intentions are pure
the pain... that I cause... I feel..
the more I scar others, the longer it takes my heart to heal
I cry... inside....
too afraid to let the tears fall
I pray.... silently...
too afraid to hear my own desperate call
a feeling that is so intense... it takes everything in me to contain it
a pain that is so powerful...it takes my all...simply to just endure....
endure.... endure.... but at what point is this no longer enough?...
then what???.... what?....
trying my hardest to not give up....
but I don't know what else to do....
so to avoid the pain, the tears, the anxiety, the confusion...
I write....
&&& write
&&&& write.....
it's all I know... all I have....
so I cling to it for dear life....
the only form of catharsis that works....
the only way to make it... to persevere... the only way to be heard..
is to write...
so I will never stop....
ever...
&&& maybe then... just maybe... I will be able to escape myself...
only time will tell.
